Honestly,
The only difference between your situation and mine is im in the military so ive had to move out,
10yrs i gave her and she comes back telling me she doesnt want counselling and shes better alone, i work away alot, and when im home im the perfect father, just a lousy husband it would seem,
My dark place is an empty room with a bed a 20jnch TV and a kettle. Im dreading her leaving because im just not ready for it at all.